'Tis the season for goodbyes here in D.C., lots and lots of them. One by one, it seems, friends are leaving the District to attend grad schools around the country. At this point in time last year, we were one year out after graduation. Friends floated along in jobs, content to wait for another year before pursuing their grad school dreams. This year, however, several close friends have opted to pack their bags and leave. One friend, the first goodbye (which will happen this weekend with a final barbecue), is returning to his alma mater to pursue his Ph.D and M.D.; another friend is pursuing a Master's in Public Policy and a JD from a top school; and finally, one of my closest friends will be starting a post-doc premed program in the hopes of continuing on to medical school after a gap year. Luckily for me, she will not be far away, and has said that she may even come back to D.C. to work during that gap year. But still, it won't be the same as when she was just a room, or, most recently, a short walk, away. I feel as though I'm back in college, on move-out day, when my friends and I were all messes of tears.
I had no idea that this mass exodus would happen two years after graduation. Part of me wonders whether some of them will ever come back to D.C. When and if they do, will I still be living in the city, or will I have moved on to pursue a graduate degree or a career in another city? I think that I need a few more years before I go back to school (and, for the field that I want to go into, a graduate degree might not be of any help to me, with experience in the industry taking precedence), but the departure of so many friends has made me wonder if I SHOULD be thinking about it now. I have to admit that I felt slightly panicked when so many people announced that they were going back to school, as if there was something wrong with me for not having my life "figured out" yet, a similar feeling to that of senior year, where, out of my group of seven girlfriends, four were starting grad school immediately after, or one year after, college (two law students, one med student, and one pursuing a Master's of Fine Arts). However, now, more than ever, the career I want to pursue is becoming clearer to me, and, for now, I am just trying to figure out the steps to get there while continuing to build experience. The fact that I finally feel as though I have a vision for where I want to take my career is incredibly exciting, so I've told myself that that is a first step. When and if I decide to go back to school, I will do it on my own time. One thing I have learned over the past two years, which has proven to be invaluable advice for so many different scenarios, is that you have to operate on your own timetable, not on anyone else's.
So, for the next month, I will squeeze in as much time as I possibly can with these friends, and will trust that, if we are close enough friends, we will make it a priority to stay in touch (I made this same declaration to myself senior year with regards to my closest girlfriends, and, thanks to the magic of Skype and many time and financial sacrifices that we have all made to travel to one another, I think we have managed to keep our friendships alive. Obviously, it is not the same as seeing those people in-person, but I think that we do a reasonably good job of letting each other know how much we think and care about each other, despite the physical distance). And, for those people who I do not end up keeping in touch with, I am a firm believer that everyone comes into your life for a reason, and you gain something from each person in your life. I have packed my schedule for the next few weeks to let all of those people know how much they mean to me, and I'm hoping that the tears will be minimal!
An Enduring Hunger
10 years ago








